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I would be invited to dozens of parties and get-togethers and I had many friends. I was popular because there was a wild side to me that I would sometimes show in public. Things that could make others awfully embarrassed did not bother me. I have danced alone while everyone around me clapped and whistled and cheered. I have dressed up in
wild outfits for parties when everyone else was dressed according to the book. I have told jokes that would make women cover their faces and men look at their wives so that they could laugh. However, I always did this in such a perfectly, harmless manner that I was invited to family gatherings as many times as to groups of adults. I always changed my persona if children were around, and that made me popular among children. No wonder I was equally popular among children and was asked to join so many birthday parties that I maintained a stock of children's toys in my basement. So often I would hear from a kid 30 minutes before the party that I was required to be there immediately. I never upset anyone and it was done in good fun.
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I did not regret any moment of my life, though. I had
friends, family,
wealth,
romance,
intimacy, and all the other necessities in life that one dreams of. I could do pretty much whatever I wanted to do but I still had to hold myself from doing exactly what I wanted to do because I could not possibly think of realizing all my
wildest
fantasies. I would only act out these fantasies in my mind, and sometimes only when I was by myself - behind close doors! It was very rare that I would have some company during these very personal moments of my life. However, it made a huge difference when I had company because I did not feel lonely wondering if I was the only one on the planet who had this secret life.
Everything changed when I ran into Elton
in a chat room. I rarely go into chat rooms of any kind. There are just too many obnoxious people who bother you if they find out that you are an attractive woman of a certain age. I was intrigued by his screen name, of course, and I also observed that while everyone else wanted to be heard (or read, I guess), Elton quietly just
sat there. I saw him that he was there but I did not hear him. Since I was doing the same myself, he sent me a private message, "Are you truly a
Diva? I wonder if you have few moments to spare for a potential fan!" Naturally, I felt a connection with him. We were both watchers in the chat room. "Yes, I am a Diva but a Diva in a world of ONE - just me. And, I am not sure if I need fans. I am my own biggest fan", I responded. "What if I transformed you into Diva Grande - a Diva who has at least one fan? I have a vision for her but I have not yet found the person. She is not yet real. She does not exist. I want to create one, though. All I need is someone with a free spirit, an open mind, and ready to break the rules," Elton challenged me. "What am I supposed to do to become a Diva Grande?", I asked suspiciously. "Nothing much really. Let us keep talking and over a period of time, I will share my vision with you. Let our hidden fantasies come out and I will help you go where you truly want to go and to be what you are in your mind right now but do not have the courage to be in real".
Continued:
Woman pursues her dream of being a diva
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