What do I want?

I think that I am perfectly normal, though.  I do try to dress like Japanese women but still within the dressing standards of Europe - Sophisticated, yet attractive and comfortable. I wear mostly solids, especially black/dark gray dress suits, with white or other color dress shirt. Black, cool, heeled boots. Hair sometimes up or straight and down.  I do most things that normal people do - Learning languages, traveling, meeting Japanese people especially, making sushi (or any Japanese food!), drinking good red wine, and tasting chocolate.

As I like to say, I am 'unhappily married with children' but I do not want to give up on my life yet.  This time, I expect my partner to love and laugh along with me, and not feel as though life is nothing but a serious and boring quest. I want to live the exciting life that I feel I have the courage for. I want him to see the world with me and not be scared of new opportunities to make life more fulfilling.