As I talked to her I gradually found a perfect friend in her. She talked to me about many things in a month’s worth of time. We talked on message Boards about Japanese anime and manga, and we talked about how people acted, and about religion. Most of all we talked about our opinions on love and friendship. As time went on she seemed more like a modern girl at about the age of 15, and by now I had gained her trust, so she openly admitted to me that she was 12 and going on 13. I forgave her for lying to me and we promised to keep no secrets from each other. I admitted to her that I was falling in love with her and I was surprised when she openly said that she couldn’t stop thinking about me, either. When she created screen names for the web site we used, she told me about how she liked to hide secret meanings within them, just as I did. 

We both happen to be interested in pursuing a career in animation, and I could talk to her whenever I wanted! I got up early in the morning like she did, just so I could talk to her. As I continued to tell her about my feelings for her, she was happy at first, but then I went and made the big no-no of telling her about how I liked Lana. She didn’t say anything more about romance to me thereafter. We still talked about other things, though, like poetry. She just loved poetry, and she was pretty good at it. She always sent me pretty poems and I read them in awe – they were just plain beautiful. But when it came to friends and family she seemed to be less talkative. She said that most of her friends moved away and she told me that her parents made her study really hard, they kept a really watchful eye over her, and that she couldn’t be on for too long. I was worried and felt pretty sad for her.  Her parents seemed to make her study too hard and she seemed to want to have more freedom.  

Then, one day she said that her parents wouldn’t let her be on our common website. She quietly snuck in quickly to give me her e-mail address and I sent her a message immediately. She told me through the e-mail why it had happened – long story. Anyhow, we communicated for a while until her parents said she could no longer talk to me. I ran into her a few times since then, but she all at once stopped talking to me.

About a month ago her friend told me that she had fainted at school and got amnesia. She didn’t remember me. Her memory was getting better but everything I had said to her was obsolete. I was furious, but I haven’t been able to do anything – she hasn’t been online ever since.

I also talked to another Asian girl in a chat room. Mainly, I started by flirting with this girl for some reason. My story about her is short – basically I try to talk to her sometimes and she goes away for long periods of time and doesn’t respond. She seems to favor black and Asian men, though, and she tells me that she doesn’t want to be involved in any relationships right now. She keeps telling me she is in Laos.  

Anyway, I have talked to a few more Asian women than I have mentioned here, and all of them do disappearing acts right away without telling you why! An American girl is doing the same thing to me now, but she waits a lot longer before she even talks to me, and even then she talks subtly! All of these people are very kind individuals who have good hearts and high spirits, so that gives me proof that Japanese women are exactly what I am looking for. I have been through a lot more than this but I can’t remember anything else well enough.

And FINALLY, now for my conclusion. The Japanese women that I have seen and communicate with each have their own deep personalities and differences. The girls I have met care greatly about family and tradition, while at the same time they have no true religion – the girls I met formed their own opinions about life, but a little more different than the opinions I have made. Japanese women are caring and strong inside, yet very emotional and sensitive – like me. They are really deep thinkers and you can barely tell that they have everything planned out and strategize well – they make sure that they know who the real person is that they are talking to. Another important note is that the first girl I talked about said she wasn’t who I though she was. At first she may have seemed older and Gothic when in reality she was younger, caring, and nurturing.

Japanese women, strangely enough, act uncannily like I do. I have very deep thoughts and my emotions are special to me. I care about everyone even though I may say that I "hate" things, but we are all really brothers and sisters in this wild game of life. I think that I poses some special ability that directly links me to the feelings of people, for I am one of the most sensitive and kind men (not to brag) that I have ever met with such extensive feelings and thoughts that cannot be described here. Something deep inside of me is attracted to the mesmerizing and lusty wonders of the elusive Asian woman, and I am anxious to fulfill my dreams and find an Asian woman for a partner.  

I have become very obsessed with Asian girls and I hope to travel to Japan and/or any other Asian country to find true love. I seek a caring soul mate just as kind and natural as the Japanese girl I extensively described above. The Asian women are very polite and attractive - like the perfect reward for men in life! Most American girls have already smoked, drank alcohol, and gotten into fights over here, whereas Asian girls are smart and don't usually get into these bad things which will most likely be the cause of America’s tragic folly. I am tied to the theory that Asian girls are my destiny, and I know that I must have hope and patience that I will someday be fortunate enough to find a loving companion, lover, and friend in an Asian woman. Until then, I plan I do my best to learn more about Asian women and their culture as well as learning some Japanese – to make things a little easier for the woman. I hope that my beautiful dreams become a reality – I can only hope for the best.  

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